I'm finding my thing~

"Everyone have their own specialities" but i still didn't found mine. I love art. but art is an extremely wide field. Music? Dance? Photo? Paint?~

Now i'm findin' mine...~ Hav u found ur's???~

~ Further Away Rest A Heart ~

*sigh*...~

Finally something was proven. I saw it with my eyes...~ Yeah...she wrote that...he wrote that too...~

Eventhough their relationship status is hidden in there, but i think it is true...~

They have many reason not to display their status...but yeah...eventhough they didn't show it...but everyone around them knows about them..its just me refuse to believe it all these times...~

I still didn't ask her but I think I know the answer already...~

Yeah...~ Juz to satisfy my heart...I will ask her myself...I wanna ask bout everything I've been thinking all these times...~ If I can make these things clear then maybe i wont be bothered by all these illusions of her....~

I've wasted parts of my life...what i've shown them all these days I'm with them are juz my weaknesses...n that is maybe why she didn't even bother about everything I've sent...~ I'm small n weak...at least that is what she see in me...yeah...compared to the sweet guy she likes...~

At least now I know she will be smiling more throughout her life~

Now I say : I fell for u, n then u left ur footprints here, in me,and it is really deep. I wont touch it, coz anytime if u finally can see me, u know who u are for me ~

Feel And Reel About Her ~

Felt A Rejection After Her ~

Fought And Raged About Hopes ~

Fabrications About Reality And Hopes ~

Found A Reality At Home ~

Face A Real Answer Here ~

~ The same feeling over & over ~

Feuw....~
now it feels like i'm getting tired with da same things I felt again n again. At night i get da determinations but when it comes to da time to act, its like I'm not myself anymore.

All the determination I have da night b4 vanished juz with a deathly glance.

My mood was always taken away juz for a particular reason that I still can't solve. Now sumtimes I feel like I'm not MEN enough & that must be one of da flaws seen in me. Now...how to solve it?~

I'm waiting for da rite time and place...but waiting will not change anything...should I rush??? then I'll eventually think of da consequences.... ~BLANK~

~ Paths of Life ~

Hey, I found my ol' book n found something written in it~

I can't remember when did I wrote it, but I think its worth posting~

~>

Would've I been walkin' on a calm road

if only me who build the paths,

Would've I been restin' in peace

if only the life is how I wanted it to be,

But

Here I go,

In da world

where everything won't be that easy,

when everything we see...decieve,

But

It doesn't matter,

no hesitate, that's how I live it

no regret, done the things we did

Juz take a glance to our past

Face forward

and thrust your way

till the end of your life~

~ Still about it ~

Searching for da reason,

I'm sure of its existence,

which makes me always wonder,

What have I done,

Where did I fell,

Why did I fell.

Uneasiness...

Filled each & every empty spaces around me

A haunting figure of hers,

Curiosity keeps killing me~

The best functional place,

is not the place where we can throw craps to,

but the place that can turn those craps into flowers,

May people act the same?

As you know there's shits on you,

Gotta find out what things would do,

Never worry, someone is there,

Throw 'em out as if someone cares,

And if they don't juz keep it there,

You'll know how to face it someday...~

*Yeah!!!

I can do it,

now i know it,

even if I hesitate,

I know I can finish it.

*I'm ridiculous!

I'll do it,

I'll voice it,

*Thats the way!

I'll face it,

I'll accept it,

As I'm the man of my life,

I'll find the way of my on life...~

~ One vs Everyone ~

If one stands in a crowd and demands something that everyone else won't approve, how would things flow for him?~

He told another person about what he wanted to achieve, and asked that person for help. Unfortunately, she said that she could do nothing but listen to it. However, when the time came for the guy to stand up and voice out his demand, she took sides with the crowd instead. And I believed, at that very moment, the guy would break, tremble feebly, weaker than he was before...~

Well, if you're longing for something, but everyone around you wants that thing to belong to someone else, would you still fight for what you are wishing for?~

If that scene is in a movie, I wonder what role would that person play? the protagonist? antagonist? or just a minor character?~

~I believe that everyone is the main character of their own story~

Apparently, in my story, that scene is being acted out. And now I'm wondering, is this the Climax? The time where I should stand and fight for my dream? Or is it just a side conflict that I have to go through before reaching the Climax?~

I really wish that this IS the Climax, coz never before have I longed for something this much.
My mind would always ponder on 'it' everyday, refusing to stop even at my command. I become weak everytime I face 'it'. I've dreamt of 'it' in my sleep more than 5 times now. What could be worse than that?~

Dear God, I hope that the storyline will turn out the way I wanted it to be. And 1 thing I know, You have given us the power to change what is fated. I'll live my life. It will turn out how I want it to be, but only if I act accordingly. So please, help me in all of my actions... coz I've discovered, one misstep will harshly affect everything that will happen of me~

~the BEST for me is there~

~it's just the matter of TIME~

~Days' Terminal~

Titled : Days' Terminal

Established : 04.04.2010

~Under the guidance of Experience, Sorrow, & Excitement~

~Things I felt, paths I took, words I heard, thoughts I learned, results I achieved~

~Movements & Developments~

~Results are what matters~

~B'Iz~